My GO Adventure.
Current mood: accomplished

It began on a day kind of like this one that we experience today. It was very grim outside not very friendly in the street. It didn't really make sense to all of us why we stayed where we currently stayed but yet we lingered on. On long induring on our great adventure in this place known as GO. My sanity very slowly slipped away from me as I knew it or once knew it atleast. We rocked on with our modern day jams, atleast they were modern day to us counting that we got lost in this piece of shit hell hole known as GO and we had never been updated on anything else that was happening in the outside world, and good friends of the many legends that you'll hear of from time to time through out the population updates of this place. For you see that we didn't exactly get to see public much through out our horrific stay at this place. So we more or less stayed frozen in time as we indulged in our studies of many random thoughts and experiences through the technology world. Some were kept to us and others were spoken through out the long days that we struggled with. I once heard a saying from a friend that I used to know, the story comes to the storyteller as water comes to the ocean from the flowing rivers, for do not try to intervene with the almighty flow of the great river, let it flow as it does. Row with the flow as it's spoken in a short phrase and you shall receive the words of the almighty flowing river. And on goes the process. And in my time that I've spent here at GO I've learned so many new things and I've met so many new interesting people that I will NEVER forget. My time is coming near that I will retire and be headed on my way into what is known by us as the "outside world." With so many things left to discover and experience through out my life. The one thing that I will NEVER forget is the true friends that I made at GO and the way they made me feel that I was equal to them. That I didn't have anything else left to be in debt to them that all I had to do was just be there and it was all ok. I will NEVER forget that. How people just seemed to fade out only to be remembered by some random action that they made therefore forcing them into a state of termination or by completing their trade and heading into the outside world. My version of the legend began with 3 individuals that went by Slim, Midnight, and Sketch. Sketch was a very hyper active son. Whenever he was called a "white boy" by another he would react by informing them in a very ill manner that he in fact was "not white he was Italian." Therefore after I made the notification that these 3 hung out with each other I labeled them the "Italian Mafia." I decided that this would be the group in which I hung with the majority of the time I was here. These individuals held such things in common with myself such as similar tastes in music. The hardcore selection of course. The one that goes by Midnight fascinated me in her own way with her unique taste in music by informing me on a new genre of music entitled "Dark Wave." I'm not really sure how to describe this new genre of music except that after listening to a band entitled "Cruxshadows" I descibed this experience as being as a poem reading set to a musical beat that sounded something of a oldschool western salon type taste. Slim and Midnight started taking an interest in one another somewhere along the beginning of their great adventures here at GO. And so they ended up going out with each other in good time of course. This in no way bothered me I totally supported them and still do to this day in their idividual stand as a gothic couple. I'm aware that it's wrong to label things I'm just doing my best to sound technical for this is my GREAT ADVENTURE OF GO. Back to the story. There was one named Steven Smith that was the biggest nerd you would ever come across in your time here at GO. Now I was something called a room leader in my room with Slim in A Bay at the time Steven Smith slept on the top bunk over my bed. After breakfast on a usual morning I came back down and was standing in front of A bay when everybody ran over to my room’s window. They were all looking into the room very hard like. I was like fuck it time to clean the good old room. So I went inside. Accordingly this is what happened. There was some African American dude just chilling and Steven Smith came out of the room the black dude said “Hey Fagget!” And Steven made a little comment something like “Fuck you.” The black guy didn’t like that very much so he ran into the room after Steven Smith and he through a bedsheet over his head and wailed on him in the head and chest. After the bedsheet came off his head he ran outside with his CT book in hand and he through it at the black guy. Now there was two of them. They came in through the bedsheet over Steven’s head and beat the shit out of him. Now, Steven decided to make one more comment that caused a third black person to come into the room with the other two and the bedsheet yet again went over his head and he got the shit beat out of him for the third time. When they were running out I was coming in with my cleaning supplies to clean my room. The bedsheet slipped off of Steven’s head and he was redder than a fucking apple. I said one thing to the little tyke. “Are you ok Steven?” Before I go into the next part of this story I’m sure you know what it sounds like when a baby or small child cries. It sounds like a plain crashing. How they start with the high tone and go into the lower tone of the crying and right before the crash seems that it will happen the little sobs come from their little nose. Back to the story. Steven was redder than a fucking apple. After I asked him that question. It was funny as hell. He started climbing the latter to get into his bed and as he was going up the plain was coming down. He balled like a little bitch for atleast 20 minutes. That day was known as BBD: BEDSHEET BEAT DOWN. Chris Brewer was the homo that we know that we could get the famous quote from "CT gives you homosexual tendencies." And I thought "Hell Nah." Back to the story. Slim and Midnight were standing in the ghetto ass court yard with the picnic tables made out of concrete surrounding them as it was nightfall all around. Slim ended up using the classic line "Do you see the stars above Midnight?" Midnight replied "Why yes I do. Why might you ask Slim?" And Slim replied "I've been counting those stars up there and for every star I could count I would think of a reason why your special to me. There is only one problem." Midnight said "And what's that Slim?" Slim in his smooth pimpness replied "I ran out of stars." And so they started going out. Sketch was very sporatac he ended up going out with many randomized cracked out caucasion skanky chicks around this mo fo. One day later on down the road in trade I was sitting doing the usual training dealio. Sketch came in and requested that I get him two gloves for some odd reason. I replied "Sure." Handed him the gloves that he requested. Later on that day after trade I saw him walking down the sidewalk with a very solemn look upon his face. It turned out that he had returned to Welding which was currently his trade and he filled both gloves with a flammable gas and took a lighter to each one. Now this crazy motherfucker accordingly almost blew welding up. Therefore he was terminated. With the absence of Sketch in the Italian Mafia we lacked a father for the AKA Family. So therefore Slim came to rise in power with Midnight at his side as the Empress to The Family. Now this also meant that we had new slots in The Family for other idividuals as ourselves to join and this also meant that the once former Italian Mafia or The Family needed a change in name once the original father was terminated. Therefore we renamed to The Brotherhood and Hitman, Koby, Malakia, Heavy D, and Buck joined in as the ranking Bitches With Respect. And we also formed the great Economy. The Economy worked in a way that we received snack every night at 8:30 PM. We would save our snacks and give all of them to the new father Slim. We started out selling the snacks at .50 cents a pop. This built a quick revenue of money for us to work with in The Economy. Hitman was the first African American member of The Brotherhood. He didn't so much listen to the hardcore stuff music wise but none the less listen to the common but lesser and weaker Punk Rock music genre. Hitman got his name because he was always walking around talking about how he was going to pull someone into the shadows and beat the shit out them if not take their life. At around this time Hitman had this one motherfucker that came into CT one day that was a CEP. More or less a CEP is a poser wannabe CT member. This CEP fucker became known as Toddler Penis because he was so small. He started talking shit to Hitman and they almost got into it. This resulted in THE FAMOUS JUMP WEEK. Now this was the week that a bunch of stupid ass redneck motherfuckers got together and formed some club together called the Cracker Killers. Basically on Jump Week all these dumb rednecks got jumped by a bunch of African Americans and got fuct up. There was a big rumor around this time going around that all the white people on campus were in the KKK. Now in no way was I ever racist but I was accused of it all this week by random fuck heads. Me and Slim at first thought that we would be the next to be jumped or in other words lock and socked. This was where a group of people wearing masks would get a sock and put a pad lock inside and beat the shit out of you with it. It turned out that me and Slim heard about this gay ass group of Cracker Killers we figured that they were the only ones to be jumped that week end of that. Koby was also African American and was definetly one of the most hyper active minors that I've ever come across in my time. Koby also highly resembled Dave Chapelle. Koby got his nickname by default. Malakia got his nickname because he claimed that he had some descendent of the actual Malakia the vampire. He was a very hyper active minor that of course didn't know much in the first place. Heavy D got his nickname counting that he was very much overweight and his first named started with a D and also from the fact that he didn't really have a very well suited nickname already. As in common with Malakia Heavy D was also a very big dumbass the only difference . And Buck was the newest member of The Brotherhood. He got his nickname by default meaning that he just came in with it already selected so that was what he was known by. Buck was a motherfucker you didn't want to fuck with. In no way did he plan on hurting anybody it's just that if you planned on fucking with him the shit he knew would make you think twice. Buck knew Nin Jitsu a form of self defense. This motherfucker knew how to use grass as a weapon. Buck was the first to fade out as so many others had in my time at GO. He got his old job back in his hometown and left. One day we were having The Brotherhood meeting which was very important and which was where we updated each other on what was happening with The Brotherhood and not only was the usual meeting happening on this day but Malakia and Hitman were being promoted a rank in The Brotherhood which was known as "The Ceremony Of The Royal Pimp Smacking." Now all members of The Brotherhood were expected to attend this meeting and ceremony afterwards. Hitman informed us that he was going to return shortly but he had to leave. He was seen leaving and went to CT where he caught himself up in a intriguing game of Counter Strike. We decided that this shed great shame on The Brotherhood on his part. Therefore relieving him of our posse. Malakia under went the great ceremony and received his promotion to Officer in The Brotherhood. Koby was the one that commenced The Ceremony Of The Royal Pimp Smacking. He put some of that old school back hand pimp smack down on Malakia’s dumbass. Malakia cried like a little pussy for about 3 hours instead of feeling sorry for him we through his little precious book on top of the “Ghettho Shelter.” He started bitching about it so we just left. Koby ended up fading out pretty fast as well. He didn’t make it far enough through the good old trade fast enough. Kenny Brown one of the staff members called both Koby and Hitman up about progress they were making in Trade. And when Hitman tried to get Koby to come with him Koby said “ No, Fuck that shit! I’m not going anywhere. That dicksucker can come down here if he wants to see me!” So Hitman was all like “Fuck It!!!!” And he left saw Kenny Brown. Ended up studying his ass off and he passed the test got to stay in CT. Koby didn’t he got kicked out about a week later. Malakia’s dumbass ended up breaking the fucking window to Slim’s, Heavy D’s, and my room. Malakia was standing outside talking to me and Heavy D and I told Heavy D to “Shut the fucking widow! It’s cold as fuck outside!” And Malakia was all like “Fuck It!” So the motherfucker slammed our god damned window shut hard as hell and shattered the motherfucker. Glass went everywhere. The staff just changed the window and kicked his dumb fucking wannabe poser ass the fuck out of GO the next day. Bye Bye Malakia. He said his pussy hurts. Anyway. Later on down the road Haystack, Chicken, and B1g P1mp1n joined our little group. See, eventually down the road we didn’t need The Brotherhood anymore now it was all about “THE ECONOMY.” Me, Slim, and B1g P1mp1n rose to power very quickly through our smart white hustle. See we worked through something we call The Network. We flipped our money repeated times over and over again. It was farely entertaining while it lasted. We would advertise everybody within side The Network. B1g P1mp1n got his nickname from him just being himself. He was B1g and he was P1mp1n. Chicken accordingly got his nickname from some cracked out story about how he started saying “Chicken and Gravy.” A bunch of times with his brother or something. Yup. Haystack was always just Haystack I don’t have any idea about this one. Slim ended up getting terminated down the road because his locker was searched while we were in trade and a butterfly knife was found in his locker. But on a serious note though he was never really terminated he was allowed to keep his trade book so that he could study while he was at home and come back to take the big test to become A certified at a later time. So more or less he was put on temporary leave. I ended up accomplishing gaining my A+ certification, career skills, and so much more. I’ve had a good time at GO for the most part. This is the end.

10:13 AM

My Only One.
Current mood: loved

Tori my only one. I will never cheat on or hurt her. She makes me feel like I have a reason to exist. I love you always Tori. You are my only one.

8:06 PM

My Girl.
Current mood: loved

Sometimes in life I feel like I'm just floating along on a river of time. And one day I came across somebody that was really important to me. Tori is her name. I started out by getting to know her and I decided that I liked her enough to ask her out. She said yeah and now we're going out. I couldn't be happier. Some of her family doesn't really like me that much counting that there is a difference in our ages. But that doesn't matter to me. Because I see age as just a number. It's the way the person makes you feel that's important. And I would never hurt Tori. I love her. And that makes me feel like I have a reason to live my life atleast. XO to you Tori.

1:15 PM

Down In Flames.

About 2 years ago. I was sitting at my house bored off my ass. That's when my mother asked me "hey do you want to come with me to the mall to run some errands?" So I said "yeah I'll go." I stood outside the mall and let my mother go ahead and walk in so I could finish my cigarette. I went in and ran straight into one of my old friends. She was with 2 females that I didn't know. They asked me if I wanted to hang out with them so I said "yeah." We went outside to get a smoke. And that was when my old friend introduced me to the 2 other females. One named Kelly and the other Kali. When I locked eyes with Kali I automatically fell in love with her. Kali was accordingly staying that night at Kelly's house. So I got Kelly's phone number so we could hang out the next day. That entire night all I could think about was Kali and if she liked me like that. The next day I called Kelly and got directions to her house and went over there. We hung out each other for a couple of hours until I had to leave and that was when Kali approached me and gave me her phone number. I called Kali that night and we talked I told her the way I felt for her and she said that she felt the same way so we started going out that night. We went out for 3 months without fighting or arguing with each other what so ever. One night I was hanging over at Kelly's house with Kali, Kelly, and one of my friends named Matt that ended up going out with Kelly. It started to get late but Kali and Kelly didn't want me and Matt to leave. I asked Kelly "When is your mom going to sleep?" She told me that her mom had taken some sleeping pills and she would be out in about 30 minutes or so. Kelly told me that I should go with Matt down the street to a local gas station and call them on a payphone at 2 AM since it was currently 1:30 AM. So I kissed Kali goodbye and me and Matt went down the street. There we were sitting in front of the payphone when 2 AM hit and I called Kelly's house. She told me that her mother wasn't asleep yet and to call back in 30 more minutes. So I said ok. I came back to the car and told Matt what Kelly had said. Matt says to me "I've got to go to the bathroom and I'm kind of hungry. But I don't really feel like going in this gas station. Do you know any other place we can go that has more of a party atmosphere?" I said "Dude its 2 AM. The only place I know that would even have a slight bit more human activity is the grocery store down the street." So Matt said "Ok then lets go there." So we went. Me and Matt walked in and started straight to the back of the store towards the bathroom. Somewhere half way down the chip aisle I decided to see if a price tag on the shelf was flammable. I lit the price tag on fire. I said "Hey Matt. Check it out." And pointed to the fire. Matt said "Big deal man. Put it out and lets go." So I swatted at it with my hand and the flame went out. I walked to the end of the aisle and turned back to double check it. The flames were as long as my arms and burning all the merchandise on the shelf. I ran back to it and swatted at it with both of my arms and the flames went out. But before I left I didn't double check it. And the plastic coating that the price tag had been made out of was melting and a piece of it dripped on to a bag of chips and set it back on fire. I had turned around and went to the bathroom. When me and my friend Matt came out of that washroom the flames were to the ceiling. My friend Matt went outside and I ran straight up to the fire and swatted at it with both my arms and legs but it was to great. I started getting smoke inhalation so I went outside the store to join my friend Matt. We waited 20 minutes and the cops and fire fighters finally got there. They qustioned all the employees of the store and the customers about the fire. I told the cops that I didn't know what happened but I tried to put the fire out when I noticed it. My friend Matt said about the same thing. It ended up that they had cameras in the store and the cops claimed that they had me on camera starting the fire. I got arrested with my friend Matt. Counting that I was 17 I went to juvenile and my friend Matt was 18 so he went to jail. I was so fucking depressed when I arrived at juvenile. Every night I spent in that shit hole I cried myself to sleep. I didn't eat my first 2 weeks in there. I never talked to anyone. About 1 month into being locked up I got a call from my girlfriend Kali. Kali said "Hey, it's good to talk to you. It's been awhile. Hey, I have something to say to you. You've been in there for awhile now and you still haven't been to court yet. I'm out here and your in there. So....I want to break up." I begged and pleaded with Kali not to break up with me. I told her that I loved her more than anyone that I had ever met in my life. But there was no changing her mind. She was gone. My whole reason for living was gone. I didn't have shit left except a fucking brick wall to stare at, stiff ass bed to sleep on, and a fucking barred up window to look out of. I cried so hard that night. I didn't say anything to anyone. I didn't even come out of my cell for visitation when my mother came to see me. Nothing mattered to me. I eventually went to court and pleaded guilty. I was charged with arson of the 1st degree. I was told that I did over 1 million dollars in damage to that store but because they had insurance I didn't have to pay anything back. My punishment was 3 months of short term program. I was transfered from juvenile in my home town to boot camp in south GA. I got my fucking ass kicked until I would bleed everday for 3 months straight. And finally my day came when I was released. I got out and went back home. I saw Kali about a month later and tried to talk to her. She told me "Ryan, I've moved on. I've matured. I won't go back out with you. You're to immature for me." In that moment I was shot down by the only girl I ever loved that much. I was Down In Flames.

11:06 AM

Ravn For Eternity.

I've got close friends that I hang out with where I currently am. They are some of the closest friends that I've had in my life. They treat me as an equal. Unlike a lot of the friends that I've had in the past. Straight up this is for them. I will forever be a Ravn for eternity.

9:11 AM